me

living in the past
with fond memories
thinking of future
by hope addicting
& ignoring the painful present
totally,completly.
with pain in my heart &lost dreams.
sighing about the
fallen days which
pushed me into
pain,hell,
lost

i lost myself

i lost my self:
when i see her,the b'ful her
when i think the world must be change
when i wandered lonly through the crowdy steet

& in the starry night,on the river side,
in the rain,in my dreams...

........i lost myself

my life

"the
inheritance of
loss"

why ??

in the lonely street
on a chilly night
u&i are the only
people in the world

i expect from u a warm
kiss,a tight hug
yet.......
we make our bed nearer
i burned under ur fire
and ruined
&...
u made me lost.

the threes & a five

the 3 s i want necessary : stomach,sleep, sex

the 3 w i wish :wine ,women,wealth

thje 3 f i like always with me:fun,friends,frolic



the 5 sh things i do while i get bore:shave,shower,shampoo,shit,shag

own funeral

once katherine mansfield said:
"if u wish to live
u must first attend your own funeral"


but after attending many more funerals of our own why i didn't get a LIFE

my days

As usually days

rolls on to

past, forgetness.

then in my future

i'll lament on

the days for making

me crazier&freaky.

these days i work

endlessly but

nothing doing,only

it gives me

pain & hell.

me

"here i am
having began to bud
among ruins
nourished only by miseries
as if weeping were a seed
and i the only furrow of the earth"

pain my love (season 2)

" the spirit of life is love
do u know what kills life ??

neglect,only neglect."

my 2ND love was so b'ful.and i ... it made me out of this world
& placed me over the rainbow
& i wandered the realms of happiness.

i first met her on jan:6:2005
she was the real onewho came always in my dreams,we meet regularly &get aquainted
but never talk a word even after one year but we passionately looking each other .
i can see a hidden smile on her face

after one year of silent love we departed,
she trasfered to a distant town for her further study and i ....

"all all all alone
on a wide wide sea
&never a saint took pity on
my soul is in agony"

my first love

love:a total exilerating ,nerve twinkling experiance :L

"i ne'er was struck before that hour
with love so sudden & so sweet
her face it bloomed like a sweet flower
& stole my heart completly"

it was when i was 15.my first love..
it was a love @ first sight.an unmatured, completly one sided,&short lived.
she is so b"ful & i turned insane to see her smile.and i wait for her on the way side
to tell my love and failed miserably.
then one day mr."x" came to me &requested me to leave her
he showed me of there relationship.
& my 1st love lost succesfully...!!!

10 commandments of a blacksheep

1. play hard,work hard,rocks hard
2. live each day as if it were your last
3. try everything once
4. try the really interesting things many times
5. fear nothing,especially fear
6. live with your own rules
7. rebel against the routine
8. live extreme
9. live on the edge
10. break the rules,it made to be broken

My Aspirations and Dreams (M A D)

I want my life with meaning and successful and also i want
to live according to my inner call.it tells me, inside of me how to live and rocks.
i wanna be worthy by all,i wanted to travel internationally for acquiring
international experience.that is i want to be a cosmopolitan,one who remove
all hindrances.
i have got to do lot of for my family,from the deepest of the hell i want to reach
them the safe shore ,
and it has no end.............................

the language of my dreams

"it is half English,half Indian
funny perhaps,but it is honest.
it is as human as i am
don't u see....?


it was along time ago
i have almost forgotten my dreams
but it was there then
in front of me
bright like a sun
" my dream"