Blasts from my bad past

I was a hippie, an addict..i was addicted to drugs, love, alcohol, people, places,cigarettes and traveling... drowned into the deep digital spaces.was about to die twice due to drug overdose, a few knew about it.loved to lead a gypsy life.my whole life was about survival,these hardships made me numb,i killed my happy hormones and turned hard hearted,cold and emotionally detached. not a midlife crisis. iam calm as a monk now

Iam the one who carries the burdens alone, the one who swam the seas for love,one who knows the depth of true love and the one who immerses in it and attains salvation.and  knew the deepest pain of losing it,turned the walking dead then.nothing amazes me these days..(love, relationships and places..etc)

Some of my relatives and friends mocking me thinking that iam a teetotallar, avoiding me their gatherings and meetings.iam acted as dumb and smiles at them and sticked to my bad social life.nothing amazes me these days.(people, alcohol,drugs and cig..etc

That memories from another life, slowly fades away..into oblivion.Even loved ones may not know what each person really is..And they love that magical Mystery in them.

islands

till we meet ,we were islands!!
On a fire island
one treehouse saved us.
Together we walked long
Listened “come on over”
We soaked our sorrows in a bathtub
It’s cold outside,
coziness and warmness encircled us.
 Later we step out into freezing cold
With a loud cry..
Walked away with a heavy heart and teary eyes
Into forever lost
Into Zillion years of Solitude.....

Bucket dreams!!

Here is my #bucketlist
1.Himalayas-to the transformation..I will find myself there.
2.kailasam- most divine, most sacred
3.india tour-travel across India by bullet, covering all states,beaches, beautiful villages, Streets,meet people,take photos,enjoying all local foods..
4.scuba-to see,feel and experience ocean life ,preferring lakshadweep
5.moving to a different country and live there(eat,prey read,love and yoga)
6.skydive-ready to face the fear,to feel the great experience
7.leading a hippie life
8.hot air balloon ride-wanna fly in a hot air balloon, to float away to heaven..
9.go to a paper lantern festival
10.mountain,tent, campfire,wine,weed,stars... Sunrise
11.beach,swim,beer,music,stars... Sunrise
12.attend a music festival like Woodstock 69

you dwell in me

In my very breath, you speak, you speak

Come into my arms; lose yourself in dreams

You dwell, you dwell in the beats of my heart

I fell in love with her; I became like a madman

Slowly she grew close to me; silently she declared herself

Now there is no one to fear; we live and die together

Come into my arms; lose yourself in dreams

The world has spurned me; only you made me your own

What peace my heart gained!

The rest have tortured me so

I have one dream: that you should be my own

Lose yourself in dreams

You dwell, you dwell in the beats of my heart

You dwell, you dwell 

Should I keep singing while you say nothing?

You dwell, you dwell

You speak, you speak

x

definition of me

“ I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically,
musically, in whom feelings are
much stronger as reason. I am so
thirsty for the marvelous that only
the marvelous has power over me.
Anything I can not transform into something marvelous, I let go.
Reality doesn't impress me. I only
believe in intoxication, in ecstasy,
and when ordinary life shackles me,
I escape, one way or another. No
more walls.

- Anaïs Nin (american author)

dreamland

Isle of dreams..a land over the rainbow.
An Enchanting,magical,mystical,whimsical,and Chimerical World.
our parallel universe..alternative reality,multiverse.. 
our everyday reality shattering here..
we find peace here and rejoicing..
we can go there only through our dreams..sail in our dreams n explore the realms of fantasy..
only explorers can reach here..if u
wake up in someone else's dream,its easy!!..
the beautiful island of dreams.

my amma

my guiding star,my mentor,guru,best friend,an angel...
My inspiration,happiness,motivation,encouragement...
She- innocent as a kid,strong as a man,pretty as a girl,a lady,goddess Lakshmi,queen...
Amma made my life "blessed" with her unconditional love..made me gentle ;)..
My mom is my teacher..she taught me..
To brush & bath twice in a day
My mom taught me(compelled) exercise every morning..
she taught (insist) me leave all my bad habits..
she taught me to cry without shame..
She taught me brahmacharya n its necessity..
She taught me my religion..SanadhanaDharma..
She taught me the meaning of 'care'
she taught me how to laugh..like a child..no fake..
She taught me Time travel..by telling her experience..its like reading "malgudy days"...
My mom taught me "dreaming" (about my gal child and wife,she always tell me abt 'em ;)
my mom taught me to be kind to animals..not to human,cause they are the dangerous ones in the world..she said!!
She taught me wisdom..make me a free thinker!!..
She taught me the thin line between 'being childish & being childlike'..make me matured
my mom taught me(told me) about the pain a woman suffer when she delivering a baby..respect to every mother,every women. amma,u r my world..i am ur blood,ur flesh..love u so much!! Respect..Namaskara on ur feet!! <3 br="">