fuming

bcoz of ma ego,i cnt inspire seein others.. growin to a big idiot. self realization! ma inferiority,makes ma head down always. d minutes b4 takin a decision,m dying..to be or not to be?... black & gloom days nw hospitals is ma 2nd home, these days r i dislike to remember ,nothing keep me going.. m fuming... :(

dream weavers

Creating a paralel virtual world aganst ds real,harsh,and cruel world n traveling thru it..a joy ride dat vanishes all our sorrows..floating lyk a kite..forgetting our bad past,holding hands,we-the babies of destiny living our fantasy.. Sm tymes v think dat we woke up, As a Baby and our WHOLE Life had been a Dream..!! 'Maya'!!.. And we hv our own time freeze,melting clocks and time machines..to make us happy dreaming.. the world without worries,tears and cry. Dreaming a world that filled laughter,cheers n hapiness. Few minutes is enough to capture it..then.. still we are walking..,till the end..by weaving our dreams!!

ma nt so amazin day

MNG-
wake up @8..a hangovr feelin (I sleep less, i'm tired. I sleep more, im tired. What the hell?)..Did medtatn..n pushups..bathe,b.f..in d mng im unlykly 2go2 wrk,if ny1 dnt cmpul us,or ask y dnt u go 2 wrk? It increases..dat dslyk..uttrlazines.. Smhw make up ma mind..wrk...oops!.m takin addtnl nutrisionl suppliment..4energy..NOON
heat..-lunch wth curd..2mrw vl b lite food lyk sugarcane juice or watrmeln lunch..bathe in sweat..
alone in ma room,half boild wth heat..lonlines, freaky..seeking pleasure wthin by creatin ma own world..fantasy..heat-lyk d desert trvelrs seein oasis..m seein a swmin pool..
NYT-breeze..fasinatin..it is mor b'ful to see women in d nyt..neon lyts..txting wth ma angel..supper frm a thattukada..yummieee it is..nthn mor..itz l8nyt..gudnytzzz

ami-ma frnd

Ami..ma cute frnd..not her name,(veena peranu) i named it..and she used to call me panjarakuttan (wen m gonna2 flirt wth her);) "amide panjarakuttan"(hm..nt much changed from ma teenage years naa? Hehe:) )
Y do boys need a frnd who is a gal? Coz she Wil nvr leav u alone wen u r sad Wil mk sure u dnt skip meals 2play matchs n do wrk ...wil fight wth u 2leave ur bad habits.. evryday,evry tym, Wil txt2u 25tyms a day2 knw wat u r doin.. As galz r spcl gft of god 2 boyz..realz thr wrth n tk cr of 'em. Dis post is Dedicatd 2al gals n boys who share d luv n frndshp:) SHE-Nvr gonna gv up gal(not to me but in her lyf)..pretty woman..(nt abt having a b'ful face but having a pretty mind n soul)...and a good gal(itz rare to get ma certificate:) the one who comes in ma prayer..ma second thought..the only frnd who knows all ma secrets.. :)
She cause ma hickups..made me a fast texter,an insomniac,light heartd..she is the song that struck in ma head all the day long
..Its rare 2 gt frnd havng sam thoughts, wavelength,views& ideas..Evry evnts vl b a coincidence..each relatnshp vl b predefnd by almighty..thank god! To make our frndshp lively,we used to quarrel sometimes..smtymes i dont understand our relationshp..frnds,smtymes more than a frnd..special one..she helpin me to be a better person than who i was yesterday(she's teacher n teachin me gud)..juz happy wth each other company...splashing!!...n waitin for nothing.
Lucky..bt no tym 2love(grr..)

brk up txts2

Ma blog is all abt love..err mistak all ma blog is abt luv..i dont know why it is!!..
WHY LOVE?:
I was in love..only for knowing wat love is..fell in love wth a gal..n mad then..break up n cured...(thank god,its over)..a perfect new generation relatnshp..Blackberry batteries last longer than relationships these days :)
love..Its 4 overcome lonelines, we attracted and fall in love,itz a mutual contract..conditional love.I must say, we r not Involved in LOVE, but Loneliness makes us the VICTIMs".!!
Enjoyd!!..
BREAK UP:
A man in passiön kills himself..running away frm it..but she haunted me n her love n lust burns me..she teaches me many..abt pain,possessivenes,mad,ecstasy..
HOW TO BREAK UP:
GALS-they are like Bluetooth, if u stay close, they stay connected & if u go away, they find new devices".. :)
starving 4a beer n bitterstick..using all ma controls

Resolutions 2012

"until u hv lost ur reputation,u nvr realize wat a burden it was or wat freedom really is"
-margeret mitchel-
:)

THE CHANGE, i need..
Itz a resolution spirit dat nvr change ;) 2012 wil rOCk..
a typical mallu resolution,hehehe;)

Oops! Years r passing like minutes..
2012!not d end of d world..
Here is ma new year resolutions..its nt new..but old wine in a new bottle :)
Wanna restart ma Diary writing,Yoga n d Gym..these helps me to focus on life..wanna be more BAD n enjoy life more..thax2 margeret mitchell..no confessions ny more ;)
Wish to live according to my own rules,love to travel like gypies..wanna LIVE in ma cute addictions(read ma old blog post)..
Less fb chat n more practical..going to buy a deo,curity for ma virginity
Wanna f*** off frm a relationship.. :( OMG it kills me.
I studied nothing from ma sufferings pain n my failure..i need2change that and wanna excel in life,wanna a life with meaningful,well settled,a focused one.
a SUCCESSFUL one.
Here is a b'ful resolution poem by an unknown
"this year,it is d time to list d thing i have left undone n to do smthin abt them.the visit i hv failed to make,the word unspoken,the letters unwritten,the tasks unfinshed.
Its d time to dust off ma dreams n shine up ma ideals" :)

[thanks to sanal-ma brother,ma love(ex),chetan bhagath,margeret mitchel,and d unknown]
:)

ma semi-d8 ?

Ön 10/12/12 evening..i got a text from ma gal..xited..she skipped from offc for seeing me,wow! Ammu rocks! I juz fly ma bike to see her..bought some choco for her..she's late by 5minutes..she scold me for wasting money..i enjoyed it.. :)
She is cool and cant see d tension b4 we met..walked with her..longing for a journey dat never end..or freeze time :) ..she is reddish in colour at that time..blushed? noticed her pimple marks..cheeks..her neck,hair,bow like eyebrows... Oh god!! i want to kiss her..she feared that some one sees us..want to hold her hand..badly missed her now..iam lucky to have her..