WHY ME?

The saddest day of ma life just ended.i failed in a govt.job test final.its the 2nd time that i have lost ma life..
Less confidence,dull,Hurt like hell,tired, pain,broken hearted,Complex filled,loser attitude,shy,timid,frustated,hate to the world..depressd...

when i feel lost all my addictions comes out..like shit..beer,fb chat till midnyt,coke,bitter sticks,flirting like mad,masterbation...
oops!!
it take mooooore time to be normal.living as dead.
huhuhu...WHY ME :'( ?

its complicated

hm...,wen im thinkin abt her,i am disturbed,very...
Feel like mad due to possesiveness..! it kills me..and im trying harder to hide it from her..and become normal.
a nice hypocrat!
we traveling through d narrow boundary of frndshp n love..somwhere in between it..strangefeeling..complicated but its nerve twinkling...ME-WIL b a saif ali khan in love aaj kal?.afraid of it.haha:) living in those tiny things which she shared with me..and waiting for it all day long
need time freezing ;)

Random thoughts-from my sent mail box

i wanna fill u with my memories,a flood in ur inbox n in ur soul..biah blah blah ;D

Can u suggest any online de-addiction center?

If u feel m rude to u,u shud do me d same, can scold me,spit me,rape me,kick me,cheat me,f*ck me,screw me,and kick my as* n say f**k ur a*sho*e

our is a broadminded relationship
but m narrowminded

if u think m spoiled say i love u

i cn walk 100miles wen u r on d phone..
u r a hypocrat n im a cute lie ;D

wen i see my broken hearted frnds after their break up,i thought i hv nobody to loose...
M afraid now..

my random thoughts-sent mail box2

if u r busy with ur damn work,u neednt to mail me,im ok wth my lonly heart..huhuhu :c

after a quarrel:
i hate it wen i txt u sayin 'm sorry'
bcoz then after i know,u want to tell me also sorry!
My male ego
false pride..?? Grrr..

Di pls make ur lunch BIG n Heavy,coz i need a chubby cheeky,fatso,bubbly frnd.plzzz..

I checkd my mail box 35times/hous n get frustatd.:c

Miss u teribly -the old one,d nw one sucks!!

if m a millionair i juz pay u rs20000/month to chat with me;D :C

di,dnt u hv anything hot to confess/reveal me?

U r not cute wen u r nt texting me;D

Read manorama YUVA page,i condemn the arrest of innocent guys who wearing low waist..
Iam in low waist now..
And everyone has the freedom to wear what they like and india is free country.its like talibanism,who attack the women didnt wear parda. low waist-its as a fashion and its allover d world.
To the moral police-do arrest the terrorists,correpted politicians,havalas and not the boys n lovers who sit in the park.!
they arent exibitionst,if the police say so,they shud ban sari too n shud arrest the sari clad women..even though its11mtr long,it doesnt hide many part of the body like belly,navel,back... ;D
so please leave us .let us free

Raining outside,raining inside

Nice to watch the rain through my window.
Chillness,calm,and refreshing...
Opps!Nothing can compare in the world,a rainy night,hugging my pillow,in a a tight blanket :zz
sizzling rain,sad rain,lazy rain,refreshin rain.many faces n feelings..
Love it,and hate it too..
rain awakes me my sad past,lost relationships,my schooldays..iam filled with nostalgic.badly nostalgic

when it is raining,i dislike to bring umbrella with me.
dont ask me why?.. ;D

monsooning...excited iam,very
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lookin far away


need a cigerette now
raining outside,and inside
step out..

A bohemian...,
a poor guy who posses nothing,loose hair with tidy cloth.its grey,the colour of my life.living with high ideas.but Money is the real problem.
It for nothing,so my cheque has free.
Dreaming the days without worries
blank...
Strugling between reality n the dreams
tired,sleepy,and confused..a desperate soul who watching his dreams dying slowly.
Bleeding..
an island of broken dreams
walking lonly till the end.
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